17 Sept 98 
 
I'm going to do something a little different here, in that I'm posting 
this the day before the date shown (didn't want to stick this on the end 
of my schedule) and I'm just going to be talking about love, which is 
different because I usually don't talk about my emotions (except 
peevishness, which isn't really an emotion, I think.) 
 
Recently, I've noticed my tendency, while sitting alone on my bed, 
listening to NPR, or looking for a pair of shoes, or generally minding my 
own business, little bursts of language come out "Stubaby!", "BWA", or "I 
love my Stu".  These come to mind when I'm around people too, but I know 
better than to let them cross from cortex to vocal chords... 
 
(It's also why it's not some kind of Tourette's thing -- I can control it 
when I'm around people.) 
 
So here's my theory -- generally, when in love, people describe it as some 
kind of warm, fuzzy glow that seems to follow them around, and if strong 
enough, cloud their thoughts and sight.  But instead of having this dull 
buzz in my background, I have some sort of integrate-and-fire 
emotion-thought connection.   
 
That is, I have little spikes of these feelings. 
 
Perhaps the rate of these occurances indicate the magnitude of the 
feeling?  Anyway, I should not spread my premise too thin. 
 
I just thought it was an interesting thought process.